Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Autism is not something I have. It is integral to who I am.

Autism is not a puzzle, nor a disease. Autism is a challenge .Autism is about having a pure heart and being very sensitive… It is about finding a way to survive in an overwhelming, confusing world… It is about developing differently, in a different pace and with different leaps.

I know many people will disagree with this, but both me and my husband feel that Amrit was given to us for a reason. She is our daughter by design, and we were meant to be together. If one believes in reincarnation, perhaps we are furthering our spiritual development by continuing to work on whatever "stuff" we had in a past life together---it's an interesting idea, isn't it? At any rate, here we are together in this life, and we believe there is a definite purpose involved. I'm not sure what the lesson is for Amrit, but for us it is love, love, LOVE. Learning to love without limits, loving when we are tired, cranky, sad, at the end of our rope, when one feels that there is nothing left to love with---we must still go on loving. And this lesson we learnt by a chance encounter with Dr. Jyoti Sharma, a gyneacologist in Dehradun. She told us that we were the chosen one, one whom God has faith in that they will care for and look after this special child of his, this pure, simply wonderful creation. It touched our souls and that day we became different with our daughter's difference.